Again.

Just few hours ago, my weird attitude came back again, like what happen in the past. Pipi send me home and I asked him to wake me up at 6pm by calling me and then i went off to sleep at 5.30+.

So, I had my sleep, and 6.02 i woke up automatically and after seconds my phone rang , Pipi there calling me. I answered the phone and the devil side of me reacted - I was really in one bad bad bad bad very bad mood. Its like so freaking different before sleep and after sleep.

I shouted at him i think, and I kept kicking the air while i was still lying on the bed. My mind was telling me that i got no time to study becuz its already 6+. I know i have to go back to my sense and i know i have to start with my homework-s immediately. But my body just wont listen to me. My legs are still kickin the air and i'm still throwing tantrums.

I was tired but my legs just wont stop kicking. I was half shouting half crying. I seriously have no idea why am i acting like one siao eh and i wish i could calm down but obviously i did not untill 6.45pm - Whereby i told him to leave me alone and i hang up the phone, there, i closed my eyes and slept accidentally.

After minutes i woke up. I called him and then told him i was okay already, then went to have my shower finally after such tiring and terrible feeling.

I asked myself what's with me?
Too-
Stress?
Tired?
or what?

Or is it that I'm half sleeping half talking and therefore I'm acting abnormal? I dont know. All i know is that its really tiring and the feeling was seriously terrible and unable to control myself. Oh well, anyway thanks pipi for not being angry despite of my crazy-actions. And I thank you, to be with me even when the devil side of your bibi appeared.

Its so sudden when i first saw your blog and then realised you've got such illness. Please, do try your best and have the will power to live on. We're all behind supportin you =). Need any help? Call Joey's hotline !

I saw her blog, though i dont know what really happen, but i still hope you guys will patch up asap okay? Today morning you gave me that and wants me to pass it to her when that one day arrive, and minutes later you stood up, and fell. Shocked - really shocked. Rest well yea, i'm here supportin you! I'm still awaiting for another skating outin ! - whereby i'll be pulling your shirt till both of us fall together AGAIN. :D. Try your best yea.

Miss ya.